tzefoxes:

neil said goodbye to ‘neil josten’ when he thought he walked to his death. he said goodbye to neil, because neil didn’t deserve any of that. neil had died with the foxes. he was nathaniel then. he was nathaniel when lola tortured him, he was nathaniel when his father went to cut him down, he was nathaniel when the foxes said they’d take him with whatever name he had. he was nathaniel until andrew said he wanted neil to live, because neil belonged with the foxes, and nathaniel belonged six feet under.   

can you hear me crying?